So blessed.

I would be so awfully ungrateful if I didn't share what I have been experiencing lately.

So.... I've been having one rough time. College is the hardest thing I have experienced so far. I was home a couple of weekends ago, and when it was time for me to come back to Provo, I did not want to leave. I love my home so much. When I'm there, I belong, I'm comfortable, and I can be myself. When I'm here at BYU, I'm just one of 30,000. It is so overwhelming. So sorry to be negative, but it is scary. I came back to school after that weekend, and I felt so utterly alone. This is really personal... but I just prayed and prayed for direction, because I felt so lost.

But....since then, I have already gained such a stronger testimony of how aware my Heavenly Father is of me. He has shown His love to me through numerous ways.

-He showed His love for me on Sunday afternoon when I walked to the Provo temple with my friends. Sitting on those temple grounds made me feel so close to Him, and I felt so at peace.
-He showed His love for me on Tuesday morning when I called my little brother. Hayden ended the conversation by saying, "Lauren, when are you coming home? I miss you. And I love you." That was exactly what I needed to get through that day.
-He showed His love for me when on Tuesday night I stopped at my mailbox to find a note from my roommate. Little did she know, I was having a hard time, and her note meant so much.
-He showed His love for me today as I was walking out of the Testing Center (after probably bombing my test), and a darling boy approached me. The boy simply thanked me for making an effort to dress modestly, that I looked nice, and he was on his way. He was probably just being nice, but his sweet comment made a difference in my moment of discouragement.

Two weeks ago, I wouldn't have been able to imagine how happy I am today. College is hard. It is oh, so hard. But I am being reminded so often of my Heavenly Father's hand in my life. He knows me. He will never leave me to struggle alone. He knows exactly what I need and when I need it. His love makes me so happy, so purely happy; and I am blessed because of it. I love my life here, and I am so grateful that I don't have to experience it without the divine help of my Father in Heaven.